Apologies

I know its been months since I last posted

Its just life haven't been so great

Its a tough year for me

Its so hard not think about being this lonely

Its like I can't think straight

Whenever I try to smile and have hope

The next thing I know I have a waterfall of tears flowing and I cant control them

It's funny how u thought those friends will stay

When u gave them everything and u have nothing else to offer and thats when they leave

How heartless people can be is beyond what I expected

Are u that heartless that when u see ur soo called best friend once upon a time lonely

And u don't even give a damn

How cruel is this society

Its funny how I tried to pick everyone up when they were about to break to pieces

And when I started to break a little by little until I have nothing left nobody picked me up

Its funny how much I sacrifice for my soo called fake friends

And they just left in a blink of an eye

I guess highschool is just an introduction to this world

And I don't like at all

Depression is my new best friends

Chasing after me and causing me to over think

Its like everyone is 2 faced

I dont seem to find who is real

But at the end I guess we only have ourselves

I wish ill be done from this hell ive been living

In no time

Shall I post ;D ?
I actually miss it

Dream As you wish 6

I woke up  extra early for some odd reason

as I took off my blanket

I looked next to me Haya who seemed fe sab3 nooma

Just as I was about to head out I heard Haya

"A7bik" Haya spitted out

Abaih mako mo5 hathy ?

Tawha fe sab3 nooma !

I turned away to see Haya's face she was smiling

But the weird thing Is that her eyes were closed

Ashkara she is dreaming

Its June 29th isnt it Haya's Birthday?

Shit shloun nsait !!!! :)

Gam afkr its 6:00am

Haya wont be up until god knows when

6l3t mn her room w g3dt bel living room

I was thinking

Shaswi 7g her birthday

Abeha tstanis!!!!

And Booom !!!!

Legait'ha ;D

I sneeked back into her room I took her phone carefully from the dresser

Thank god it wasnt locked

I was searching through her conatcts

Ako lgaita Yaaaaay :D

She will be more than happy !!

Radait el living room w i sat on the comfy sofa

I dailed his number and waited

"Guwa 7bebty shmg3dch at this time?"He asked

"Guwa....ana mo Haya" I answered

"Mosam7a e5ty mn m3ay?" He asked nervous

"Ana bnt 3mha aby aklmk eb maw'9oo3"  I told him straight away

"Tf'9ly" He listened

"Nafs ma ent 3arif ena elyoum 3eedmilad Haya w ana abey aswey leha suprise " I said

"Ee I already planned something bss tell me what you have in mind and ill tell you what am planning 3shan el suprise tkon a7la ya3ni a'3ra'9 el banat w hatha 3laich l2ny mo 3arif" He replied

"Ana maby a6wl 3laik la2na mako wagt ana awl shay ill suprise her gabel la she wakes up w will spend time with her ill call her friends w when it becomes 7 blail I want you to make her a suprise dagrha saw nfsik nasi w ana bagolha emshay n6l3 nt3sha bara w ra7 ayebha lak bdon mat3rf" Haya told him the plan

"Tam ana fakrt awadeha el beach w ra7 tshof el suprise bawns'ha inshalla" he said

"Yalla m3slama mosm7a 6wlt m3ak mashkor mag9rt o5oy" I smiled

"Itha el salfa feha Haya 7a'9ren M3a elsama el 3afo" he said aa he hung up the phone

I was happier than ever

I got to my room opened my closet

And grabbed whatever was in my sight and wore it

Rb6t my hair eb kouba grabbed my purse and ran outside

And than it hit me!!!!!

I don't have a car

How stupid of me

I rushed back inside w dr3mt '3rfat Nasser

"Oob oob shfech enty dasha 3ar'9 tara they knock the door gabel maydshon" Nasser complained

"Mob wagtk Nasser Esm3ny!!" I catched for a breath

"Sh3ndch?" He wondered

"Goom bsr3a wandy el mall ra7 aswi suprise for Haya"
I replied fast

"Suprise balla eb monasbat shnow inshalla?"He asked as he got off bed and stood next to me

"Abaaaaih nasser mo 9ij enta its her b-day !!!! Ebsr3a mako wagt" I said worried

" Oh zain thkrteni I always forget Msraa3 enty ya bnt babdl give me 5 min" He said

And I waited in his room

"RAZAN Shetswen ehni lai7en na6ra agolch babdel 6l3ay bara3" He ordered me

Shit fashla '3bia ana laish ma6l3t

Befkir '3l6 a7en omg

I sidnt even reply I just rushed to the living room

He came after 5 min

"Yalla mshaina?" Nasser asked

"Mshaina"I rpelied

We got into his Mercedes benz and drove off

"9a5a mako songs ?" I asked

"Enty kelshay taben?" Nasser asked

"Ee yalla ill count to 5" I warned

"Hahahahhaha mo 9j enty? Shnw ill count to 5?" Nasser laughed it off

"Warning w ketha" I replied

"Glbtey s3odeya now?"he asked

"Basik nasser put some songs already" I orderd him

"Tam bss latet3wden" He teased

He turned on the radio

And I just kept singing to every song I knew and

He just keeps laughing and teasing typical Nasseer

"Wai3 Nasser shal songs elley gam t76hum" I teased

"Its my time now " nasser said

He kept singing

"Hahahahah mo layeg Nasser your voice when u sing is sooo deeeep!!" I said

"Iknow " Nasser replied

Barid hal ensan !!

To be continuted

Sorry for the short post ,
Ill make sure the next post is long ;D

Dream as you wish 5

I grabbed a trolley and the crazy Haya hopped into the kids seat

"Walla zain you fit" I joked

"I have a body of a model duh" Haya replied

"Do you realize that you are 20 years old?" I teased her as we enetred the store

"I have to enjoy life im still young :( " Haya replied

"Thats what I love about you hahahahha " I laughed

Haya doesnt give a damn about what ppl think about her only outside the country ya3ni because u know we cant do that at Kuwait because of how important is sm3a back their but in here its all different nobody talks . So haya seems to do whatever makes her happy.

We went to different sections ,racks, Refirgators and got everything we needed

We went to the cashier to pay

"Hey mam its for kids to sit not adults" an employee told Haya

"Well I can fit so I dont see the problem" Haya grinned

" But your not 25kg are you ? Get off please its not allowed'' the employee warned her

"Are you saying im fat ? :( fine ill get off mayswa 3aley" Haya replied

And he went

We payed and finished

- At the car

Haya's phone rang

But she didnt reply

And it kept ringing but she changed to silent

"Haya shfech matrden?" I asked suspicious

"Huh? La mako hay Nasser akeed salfa bay5a" She replied

I nodded

Im smelling something fishy here

Lazem a3rf who is that

Im curious and im not buying what she said

It kept ringing and I peeked to see the Caller's ID

"Abudlla♥"

It was written

Inzain shd3wa matgoley I wouldnt be mad

Bss I wont take it the wrong way maybe he is just a friend ....  I want to ask her

We reached Oxford street to do some shopping

We shopped till we DROPPED omg I can never get enough of shopping its my favorite thing to do

Boys will never get the fun of it its so important for us to get dressed and be in trend and nothing feels better than getting new things oh Joy !!

We reached home at 10pm

And there we opened the door w kela shbab were sitting watching tv

As we unlocked the door all eyes were on us

Haya and I were just staring at each other embarrsed

OH SHIT

Someone save us from this fashla !!! :(

When Nasser came out of the kitchen all guys gaze shifted to the tv

"Shfekum mtan7en ! Ta3alo ana bad5lkm el'3rfa " Nasser whispered to us

I followed Nasser lead but Haya was frozen at her place

Omg hal bent :'( !!!!!

I walked fast and grabbed her hand

Nasser opened the door w dash el '3rfa m3ana

"Ent mat3rf tdg 3alena w t5brna gabel ndish FASHLAAAAAA Nasser mat3rf tet9rf" Haya said annoyed

"Walla nsait kena bel dewanya suddnely they decided to come over w glt badg 3laikum laken m3a el loya nsait " Nasser replied feeling sorry

"Roo7 roo7 fashltna allah yahflk" Haya said bdoon nafs

I Laughed at them walla myanen

" w enty shako t'97ken ha ? " Nasser asked

"Kaify entaw et'97kon" I smiled

" la walla nkta e7na?" Nasser said

" Ee n3m 3ndk shay?" I replied as I placed my hands on my hips

"Sktay razan la a3lgch bel fan a7een " Nasser warned

I pushed him out of the room

"Bye ok" I said

"Ok yal gweya 7sabich 3ndy b3dain" Nasser laughed

I locked the door

Haya and I blursted out laughing at what happened earlier

We stopped after 5 min and we both layed on her bed

"Bas2lch yal 5ayna enty " I said

"Sh3ndch ? Ana el 5ayna?" Haya replied but she seemed lost

She keeps smiling every now and then at her phone

"Ee hedy ur phone yal 5abla shfech tebtsmen? " I asked as I grabbed her phone away

"HEEEEEEEEY GIVE ME MY PHONE BACK" Haya screamed

"Oullah kel hay 3la phone ! Ga9ry 7aich Hayo Latfslena " I said

"Ee '3aley 3aley now give it back" Haya said as she streched her hand to take the phone

"Oh no sweety you got a lot of explaining to do ba3dain a36ech" I warned

"5air inshalla? " Haya asked

" well missy im smelling something fishy here" I said

Haya tried to hide her emotions

But it was clear as the sun

"Whats fishy?" She asked acting as if she knows nothing about what  am talking about and she avoided eye contact

"The person who was calling and u didnt pick up I know for a fact its not Nasser if it was him you would of picked up even though it was silly cause you know how nasser can be strict "I said so sure of what I stated

"Its Nasser who else ya3ni?" She asked

"Madry inty goley tara chft " I said

"Saw what bala?" She asked feeling nervous

"Gotcha ! Abdualla ha whose that?" I asked dying to know

"La b3d u spy how dare you hahahah ok fine we are together" Haya said and a smile crept on her face

"CUTEEE allah ya5lekum le b3'9 inshalla bss spill it out babe bss im warning you be careful very careful matdren yamkn yl3b 3laich just to please his desires I swear if he missed around with you or he hurted u I would shoot him" I comanded her

Haya laughed

"You Physco a7bich jad , will here it goes we met before 2 years which means I was 18 and my first year at college I knew nobody there ham Nasser like I said I knew about him last year so kent le wa7dy m3a ela2yam I gained friends w mara my friend told me "Chofey hatha kelyoum gam y5zch " I gnored them thinking it was just crap 7ta if he stared so what it doesnt mean anything then I started noticing him in some of my classes and in college and in class sometimes he talks to me and from that we started to be closer until I added him to bbm we became really good friends whenever I faced hard times he would always be the first one to be there for me and take care of me and then he confessed and I fell for him and we got together" Haya sighed

"Zougaaaaaaaaaaa awwwwwwww I will tear 7a'9ich and now its 2 years for you guys Im starting to like this dude a7isa he is serious about it allah ytmem 3lailkum inshalla" I replied almost tearing

Waaaaaaay jad cute Haya got somebody ..

"Back off he is mine and yea I think he is serious he said as long as we are done with college he will propose" Haya did a little dance

" Mashalla 3laih" I replied as I laughed at Haya's reaction

Haya kept laughing and shaking me

Abaih shfeeeha hathy est5afat hal bent

"Abaaaaih shfeech enty"I asked Haya

"U know he was sitting with the bunch of the guys he is Nasser's friend thats why I got mad shakly kan 7ada horrible " Haya said still pissed at her brother

"OMG 7ILFY? Thats why u crazy moron frooze?" I recalled the events and laughed

"Ee omg zain you saved me ma3rf sh9adny" Haya thanked me

"Mabaina 7bebty show me his picture let us see  how good looking he is" I told Haya as I hander her the phone

She showed me  his picture

Mashalla he is jameel

He is like what? 180cm? And fit with lots of muscles that I didnt like that much . He had a short dark brown hair , 3younah Dark bss Jad deeep that you could stare at forever with tall nose and an amazing smile

"Walla t3rfen tet5rain Jameel " I complemented her bf

"Ee duh he is my husband akeed jameel" Haya replied still staring at the picture

And we stayed at the room I didnt bother going back to my room

We closed the lights and she slept

But I didn't

I kept thinking

Alaaaah how love feels like?

Why cant I have someone who loves me?

Shfeeny ana ?

Feeny shay missing?

Aby a7is wanted

I want someone to care for me

I want to be caren of

Abt a7d y5af 3aley

A55 3la 7a'9y

And with that I drfited to sleep

To be Continued

Yaay or Nay ?

Dream as you wish (New beginning) 4

I woke up the next day lazier than ever !!!

I knocked on Haya's room

"Hayooya fechy el bab ams nemty 3ny w hadetni " I said with a sad tone

Haya came rushing and opened the door

"Walla im so sorry bss fj2a mn el t3b nmt come inside " Haya replied feeling sorry

" This time a6wfha latet3wden girl !" I gave her an evil grin as I sat on her coach

"Ooh la la t'hadeden ? " Haya replied acting serious

"Sh3balch ! Babe u cant defeat me " I replied joining in

"Agool ench3my"  Haya replied

"Hahahha anyways I wanna ask you something I will die out of curiosity" I asked anxious

"Ee 3rft about my brother 9a7?" Haya replied

"Ee tell me the whole story" I pouted

"Alright, so you know how my father had a wife before my mom but he divorced her 7ilow?" Haya questioned me

"7ilow" I replied

"But he never mentioned having a child from her until last year .One day we were just sitting at home having a normal talk until dad had to confess something but it never occured to me that he would say that he just said it directly as I remember" I have a son" and we were all just shocked my sisters and I except for my mother who seemed to already know that .We showered him with millions of questions all we got was" Nasser is 23 years old and he used to live with his mom in salmeya but now they are having some family issues so he is moving in with us I expect each and every one of you to respect him" Dad adviced us. W bss y3ni with time we got used to him wayed 6ayeb".

"Wooooow a7is its like throwing a bomb at you y3ni all of the sudden eyeb 6ary ena 3nda a child " I said shocked

"I know we were surprised as you are right now " She rpelied

"So how about nro7 n6b5 some breakfast !" I said as my stomach growled

"Ya....." before Haya could reply we got interuppted by her brother

Oh god here comes trouble I whined

"E7m..y9er adish wla la?" He questioned us

"Mo mn 9jik nasser you're half way through the room w twik ts2l " Haya teased him

"Oh come on ! Fine haya " He replied

"El mohem lets go razoon and cook breakfast" Haya said as she grabbed my hand

" ana 6b5tlkum elyoum because i felt like being genrous yalla come and taste Chef Nasser's food you will be azmazed" Nasser said acting as if he is a proffesional chef

Huh

I doubt ...

Lets eat and see how it tastes

" Lets taste and judge" I said

"Man97ich tet7deny just cause im guy doesnt mean I cant cook come and see by yourself" He said so sure of himself

We walked to the kitchen

There he placed 3 plates on the table

Each of our plates contained bacon,eggs, and toast

And an orange juice on the side

I ate ,chewed,and mushed

"So how was it?" Nasser winked

"To be honest its good for a guy " I replied

"Ee ybayen le7stey el plate sh5litey" Nasser teased me

"Lol ok fine I admit it it tasted delicious " I replied

"Iknow" He said

"Shut up nasser, so Razon wanna roam around town and check it out and get to know things?" Haya Suggested

"6ab3an I want to " I replied

"W ana nsaitoney?" Nasser asked acting left out

"Yes" Haya replied trying to act mean

"Oh good cause ive already got plans weya el shbab" he said

"Razan go get ready yalla" Haya warned

"Okay okay" I replied and almost ran to my room

Everyone got to their rooms to get ready

Since its my first day to roam around the city I'll wear as comfy yet casual

I didnt take time to decide at all so I picked the first thing that popped in my closet

A beige ruffle top with light skinny jeans , floral  pink headband, ted baker black bow flats, Grey glittering purse

I left my hair natural and wavy

I just applied  pink lipstick ,eyeliner, Mascara and im ready to go

I went over to Haya's room

And I bumped into Nasser

Iff bdaina bel mala8a I  thought

"Matchofen bss trak'9en w etd3men b5lg allah" He said

"Ee ee ad3m bel nass machof 3amya ana" I bragged as I quickly entered Haya's room ignoring Nasser

"Hello sunshine inshalla 5l9ty?" I asked haya as I knocked on her bathroom door

"5l9t just give me a minute " Haya said

After what seemed like an hour she came out

"Oullah sa3a sa3a da5el el 7mam shetswen enty" I huffed

"Sa3a eb 3ainch just 10 min, how do I look?" Haya asked

"Waaaaa3 jkaira malt 3laich mabi amshey m3ach tfshlena" I joked

"Aya el 5aysa ana jkaira? Ana a3lmch g3day bel bait 5esay ".Haya replied as she took her things and was ready to go

"At'3shmr 7bebty enty jameela mashalla 3laich" I said resurring her

"Awwwww 7bebty enty LETS HIT THE STREET" Haya shouted out of excitement

"Oh yea babe we will burn the streets " I replied as we got out

We went to her car it was a white sport range rover

"Laish begty my car yal bwaga enty " I joked as we hopped in the car

"Ee kaify 3jbtny w bgt'ha enty shako" Haya joined me

"Calm down lady" I teased

"Turn up the radio kiddo" Haya ordered me

"Right away missy" I replied as I turned the radio and the song talk dirty  played

"Allaaaaaaaah just to our luck" Haya said

"Ikr we are darn lucky ! " I replied

" Been around the world, don't speak the language
But your booty don't need explaining"  Haya sang along

" All I really need to understand is
Will you talk dirty to me?" I joined Haya

"WILL YOU TALK DIRTY TO ME?" In unison

We bursted out laughing and we danced

Till we reached Asda for grocery shopping

To be continuted

Dream as you wish 3

Kent 7dy nayma nooma 3amee8a

W ana madry eb hawa dary

El wagt mar oo ana mo 7asa

All of the sudden I felt a nudge on my shoulder

"Iffffff " I mummbled

"Mama 5aleeni anaaaam pleaseeee".I said with my eyes closed

"Excuse me mam the flight is going to land....

I opened my eyes and I realized I was in the plane oh shooot hahahahhahaha 7dy nsait eb 3mry

I woke up

"Please put your seat back to its original postion and fasten your seatbelt" The flight attendent  ordered me

I did as she said and  recalled what I said and smiled at my stupidity

I dont even know if thats a word

I stared at the window this is just Amazing

You know when the sun just comes out

And there is this horizon line its soo amazing

I just love staring out the window

It took us 30min until we landed

YAAAAAAY finally I couldnt get any more excited

I took my bag oo I headed out

I went through the security thingy and stapped my passport

B3dain r7t a5th jna6y oo I walked to the gate

And soo this familar face with a guy

Hmmmm could it be ....

She came closer and closer

And closer

Omg

I must say she turned beautiful mashalla 3aleeha
Ooh Hayaaa how much I missed you !!!!!
Haya is 20 wich makes her 2 years older than me She has a short hair that reaches her shoulders
3younha Grey and a tall nose just like me eh and a small full lips
Every guy would fall for her

We immediately hugged each other

You know the feeling when you miss someone so much after not seeing them for a long time and all that can do is a hug ? Well thats what is happening right here

"I MISSED YOU A LOT HAYOOOOOYA" I said

" ENTY AKTHR W7SHTENT YAL GA63A" she replied side hugging me

"Halla razan" He offered his hand

Owh?

I remembered my mom telling me that she had a brother,  but I dont remember that Haya had a brother ... weird huh

"Halla and you are?" I shook his hand

Lat'9lmoony idk him betgolon he is ur cousin bss I never got to see him he never showed up

He had a military look
Sha3ra 7ail short oo 5afef
Tanned 3younah grey he most of got it from his dad and his nose is just like any typical Kuwaiti guy with dirty beard

Huh not bad

Not bad at all

Girls will die for these eyes

"Nasser" he smiled

"Tshrfna" I replied

"Yalla mshaina?"He asked

"Mshaina" Haya said

I didnt reply I was recalling events in the past to see if I know this guy...

I pushed my bags along with me I didnt mind

He looked at me and I looked away

He came closer

"3a6eny ana bashelhum 3anich"  He offered

"La 3ady " I smiled

"May9er ya m3wda you are a guest I insist" He orderd

"As you like' I replied as I handed him the bags

The whole ride was silent until I got to their 
Apartment

It was HUGE literally HUGE

It was just like a villa 4 bedrooms and 4 Bathrooms

A Balcony and a kitchen

"Welcome to your new home"  Haya said with a warm smile

"Where all our adventures will begin" I replied

"Hahahhah ofc girl let the fun begin !" She said jumping up and down

I laughed at her

" e5thy ra7tich latest7en ma3ndna a7d yst7i ehni " he said almost in warning tune

Lol this guys is funny and kind

I have to ask haya something !!!

As long as we are lone

"I will guide you to your bedroom 3la ma haya 7athrt'ha tetsb7 te6l3 le bacher :)" Nasser teased Haya

"TARA ASM3" Haya shouted

"Hahahhaha 7ram" I laughed

"Hahaha i just like joking around with her " he said

"I see " I replied

He guided me to my room

Alaaaaaah

I love it

It was babyish pink wallpaper with diamonds carved not actual diamonds you know but like a wallpaper

And queen size bed  at the end of the room facing the window

And a dresser on the right with a stool

And on the left a huge closet

And on the far right my bathroom

Must I say this room maybe waaay better than my actual back at home !!

"Shrayech?" He asked

"7bait'ha !!!!" I similed as I scanned the room

He let out a laugh

I looked at him

Shfeeh hatha

"Hahahaha sorry bss '97kteny you were like a little baby getting her princess castle you should of seen your face" he struggled between his laugh

"Yal malee8 :( hhahhaha I loved the room I know I know I looked funny staring with amazement like a lost child" I replied

"Ana malee8? Afa bdaina?" He replied smiling an evil smile

"Ha ? La la at'3shmr tara" I replied unaware of what he will do next

He carried me to the balcony

"Heeeeeeey hedny nasser please may'97k tara " I said annoyed

"Yoy dont mess with nasser ! Shgelty? Malee8 ! 3edy el klam !" He said acting serious

"La la asfa nazlny nasser " I pouted

"Mako bag6ch mn el balcony yalla bye Razan" he said as he got me out of the balcony

O

M

G

This guy is literally insane ga3 achoof ta7t el bullding we are soo high in the sky

"ENT MAY......." I took back what I said afraid of what he might do next !

"Shglty?" He said as he started to losen  his grip

"Laaaaaaaaa NASSER NAZLNI ARJOOOOK " I tightened my grip on him

La hal 9by mo 9a7i !!!

"Awl shay gooly 3amy nasser ana asfa w mab3eedha " He ordered me

"3amy nasser ana asfa mab3eed elley glta  atrjak enk entnzlny loo sm7t"I huffed and puffed

"Inshalla !! " he said as he put me down

I ran as fast as I could to my room

Hatha maynon

He laughed at my reaction

To be continued

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Wrapped up feelings

I dont know why but I feel like it ,
I cant hold on so much in my chest
You know the feeling that you take so much pain in that you cant take it anymore?
You keep thinking and thinking why me?
Where did I go wrong?
I have nobody to talk to and tell all these feelings
I cant desribe how am feeling
High school was not so great
I lost everyone LITERALLY all my friends
What have I ever done?
I was always there for them through thick and thin but they never were
Imagine you are surrounded by your friends crying your heart out but they dont even give a damn they chat and laugh instead
How heartless
How cruel
What kind of friends are you
Now that am alone I hate school so much
Since the moment I enter I feel like I dont exist
How cruel they dont even give a fuck
Because they are not in my place they think life is easy when you havent been through what others did I was amashed of being seen alone
I dont even know how to socialize anymore I lost myself im afraid of facing reality I hated my life so much it sucks all I can do is pray and cry my eyes out and ask god for happiness because I know when nobody is there god will be there for me
I was so sad that teachers wondered what was with me
Being alone made me over think and I feel like crying but I swallow my tears everyday I go through this everyday but I act like nothing is going on when everything is bothering me sometimes I get tired of pulling a smile I used to return home every night and cry and cry and cry ..
Imagine sitting and your surronded by bunch of freinds having fun and your just sitting there and wondering why cant I have that what did I do to you people why nobody is welcoming me I always welcomed everyone I felt sorry for the lonoey people cause I know what it feels like but when I became alone who gave a damn? NOBODY I feel like the world will collapse on me fuck this cruel society selfish bitches but ive learned alot

1.never trust anyone with your darkest secret
2.never help someone because they will use you and throw you away
3.Violence doesnt solve anything
5.Smilling&ignoring are the best weapons
6. Dont get revenge just let it be and god will take care of it(الله لا يهمل ولكن يمهل)
7. You have to have no care
8.you have to make a space and pace out a little from your friends because the truth everybody leaves
9.Dont get close or attached to anyone
10. YOU need to learn to be Indepent the truth is that nobody will benefit you at the end

:)

Dreamasyouwish2

We all went to our parents the scene was just soo touching....

Kel wa7id m3a ahla w elley omha tabchy walla sh3oor maynw9f

Later on kelna tym3na my best friends and I and we got to the limo for an after party

,

We had a blast and it was time to return home

"I guess this is goodbye waaaay :( its soo sad a7bkum my girls " I said sadly

"I hate goodbyes we have to keep in touch" Fay replied

"Defenitly mo tnson 3any w ill miss you so much more guys" Noora joined

"Kelshay wla ansakum take care 7bayby bye" I said

We all hugged and went to our own path

I will miss them a lot
I will miss '3aba2hum
Bashtag le shofthum every morning
Bashtag le ynonhum
Bashtag 7g our gatherings
I will miss our rides
I will miss laughing with them

I opened the door knob w dshait el bait

" Yalla bnaitay zahbay your needs your flight is tomorrow " Dad told me

"Inshalla baba" I replied

Tommorow im leaving for college in London oo I have to go immeditly there and spend 3 months 3ashan a5th 3la el wa'93 oo my cousin already lives there fa It will be easier

I went upstairs took off my clothes and went in shower and got out

I opened my closet to see what will I take
Hmmmm....

I took half of my closet you will never know what you need
I took dresses,swimming suits,shirts,t-shirts,blazers,coats,hoodies,jackets,jeans,Jumpsuit,leggins,shoes,make up and so on

It was 12 midnight when I finished everything
"Oh  im so tired I will just hop on bed" I thought

And I threw myself on bed

Tommorow Ill be waking up at 6 to catch my flight

I hate mornings I really do

It took me 5 mins until I drifted
To sleep

Next morning

"SUPRISEEEEEEEE" Fay & Noora screamed as they jumped on my bed

"Entw shnow yaybkum fe hal wgt 5ar3toni I love you guys :( its actually the BEST SUPRISE" I thanked them as I got up

"You know we cant live without you :$" Fay replied

"Akeed and we needed to see your pretty face before you leave missy" Noora joined

"Awwww jad wanstony" I said as I hugged them

" maswena shay yalla get up and go to the bathroom quickly jdamy !" Fay blurred out

"Today we will give you a make over to blow their minds !" Noora said excitingly

"Okay I trust you guys ill take 15 minutes I promise" 
I replied it was already 6:15 and my flight was 9:30 am so I had to keep going

While I was showering the girls prepared everything my outfit
The make up
The equipments they need to do my hair
The shoes
The accoserioes
The purse

I got out of the shower and wore  my pajamas

Man I feel fresh I love this feeling !

When I got out they attacked me and pulled me

"Hey hey shway shway 3aley"i laughed

"La la bsr3a no time sweetie" Fay replied

"Eeh 3balch there is time its 6;30" Noora pulled me and dried my hair

Fay did my make up

So simple yet fresh and natural

She applied foundation just so the skin color is all united

She added mascara ,eyeliner, natural pink lipstick,light pink blush

My hair was done I must say I loved it !!!!

It was a waterfall braid it was amazing

It was time for my outfit

They got me juicy training fuschia tracksuit
its elegent yet comfy

And wore my nike shoes

And my black prada see-through Purse

And they put everything in I needed

A7bhum ! :(

They know me so well !

"Can I say you just BLOWED MY MIND" Fay complimented my final look

"WOOW jad pretty give me a turn lady" Noora replied

"I wouldnt be that pretty without your help guys I cant thank you enough !!" I replied happily as I turned

"No need we loved doing it anyways yalla get your ass down its 7;50 your parents must be waiting"Fay said

We got out of my room and went with my parents car it was a Porsche turbo cayanne black

My parenrs were seated at the  front and my friends and I at the back

"M7lwa benty sh'hal zain" my mom said with a smile

"5alty e7na sawena leha make over " Noora replied

You see my friends call my mom 5alty from how
Close they are to us dayman at my house

They are always welcomed

"A9ln bentch already 7lwa 5alty bss with our touch 9art ajml" Fay replied

"Ya7lelkum bnaytay kelkum kbrtaw w m7lwen allah y5lekum 7g ahlkum mag9rtw weyana" Mom smiled from ear to ear

"Mabena" Fay&Nooora replied

We kept the whole ride laughing with our parents and chatting

We finally got to the airport and went inside it was already 8:30

"Ma3slama my loveley friends ra7 ashtag lkum 7ail take care w latnosney !" I said almost tearing

"Bye my parnter in crime ra7 ashtag lach waaaaaaaay more take care wayed and watch out from trouble" Fay said as she hugged me

"Chao ya 7mara ya kalba t'hdeena w tro7ni bashtaglch 7ail maw9ech ! Be a good girl I know you too well hahahahha :( " Noora said in a sad tone as we all hugged

"Omg noora hahagah your crazy tsbeny bdal la you tell me sweet things"  I laughed at noora

"Shut up :( you know I dont do that sweet talk thing yalla bye" Noora replied

We all  hugged and they left

"Sm3eny bnytay awl mato9len etdgen 3aley w et6mneny ana w omch w ebt3dy 3an el mashakel w bent 5altch Haya ra7 tetraych fel m6ar ehya w o5oha " Dad adviced me

Haya has a brother. ..?

Hmm

Well intesting

But I hope he is not annyoing

"Inshalla yoba lat7aty"i reasured dad

" 7bebty Razoona enty"Mom hugged me between her sobs

"Kel youm 6amneny 3laich oo redy ley 5abr lat5r3eny 3laich w matdgen " Mom said

"Mama la tabchen I will inshalla aw3dch kelyoum lain a5l9 adg 3laich w a6mnch" I teared with mom ksrt 5a6ry

" 3afya 3laich yuma yalla latet25rain 7g your flight m3slama" Mom said sadly while letting me go

"Fe aman allah bnytay maw9ech 3n el she6ana" Dad joked

"Inshalla ya a3z nass" I replied as I kissed both of their heads

I said goodbye and left

I went to check in and it was boarding yaaay !

I dont have to wait it was 9 already

I entered the plane and the flight attendant took my
boarding ticket

"Hello mam, welcome abroad " she said with a smile as she lead me to my seat

"Thank you " I replied

I got in business class and

sat to the window seat

To my luck there is no one besides me so I dont have anyone bothering me agdr a5th ra7ty

I placed my bag under the seat and stared outside

I was thinking

El snen mrat eb thanya w ma7sait feeha

W a7een a5eran 7lmy ra7 yt8a8

Im majoring in law at Kent university

W inshalla ra7 akoon mo7amya

Ra7 ashtag 7ail 7g derty

W shwar3'ha

W their people

Ra7 ashtag 7g ar'9 el kuwait

Ra7 ashtag 7g ahly 

Its scary to travel alone for the first time

Bs the good thing is that im ALONE

Nobody tells me what to do or what not to do

Bss that doesnt mean ma3rf el'3l6 w el97

W aksr 3adaty

The flight attendant interuppted my train of thoughts

"Ladies and gentelment welcome to flight 105 heading to the airport of London Hethrew"

"The flight will approximately take 7 hours and 20 minute"

"Fasten your seat belt as the flight is ready to take off"

I fastened my seat belt and we took off

HELLO LONDON

HELLO TO A NEW LIFE

NEW PAGE

AN INDEPENDENT LIFE

I was soo excited

I took out my ipod and started to listen

I remembered all the great memories

And smiled like an idiot

And I drfited to dream land

To be continued

Stay tuned